Yesterday at church I had an epiphany. A good place to have one wouldn’t you think. Anyhow this last year and a half I have been the primary ctr 5 teacher. It has been the hardest calling I have ever had. I was plucked from young women’s were I was privileged to teach insightful lessons and connect with the girls. Which I loved.. I am pretty sure I went through the grieving steps. Anger , denial , bargaining , and whatever else comes with it . So my first week in primary I try to give an insightful and spiritual lesson to 10 of the hardest 4 and 5 years old children in the ward. It didn’t go well. One of my students (the one in the window sill) went home and said teacher cried. I told him it was a good cry. You know the spirit touched me crying. I was lying of course. The next week I had a new game plan I would stand on my head and teach the lesson. I had their attention but I don’t think anything was taught. As the year progressed I relearned how to teach little children. (Mine are all over the age of 5) I would tell stories as if they were from a video game. You know Ammon used a sword not a lightsaver. Play games and use big eyes when talking. This is all obvious stuff. But my heart was still with my girls in Young Women’s. I finally have my 3 girls in there and I get released.

Any how yesterday in primary as I was holding 2 of the 10 kids on my lap while trying to block the way with my foot for the other 3 escape artists of the class , we were singing I know my redeemer lives, and it was the sweetest thing. I thought to my self while struggling to keep my class in there seats and quiet there was a certain beauty, I dare say true religion about the moment. This is what is about , feeling the true spirit in its simplest form from a song with the innocence of the children . Its not about my great gospel insights or any other young women teacher. As I look back on my experiences as a youth I remember the songs not the lessons. So as my girls are growing up and going through the cinematic moments in young women’s I want them to remember it is not that complicated . The savior loves us and we should live to feel his love. Pure and Simple.